& I Am Grateful

I am so exposed to you,
I love it,
And I hate it sometimes too,
The way you know
The darkest parts of me
And yet bathe me in light.
I worry that one day
You’ll decide
That the rest of the world
Should know who I really am,
And that I’m not worthy of the rays.
I grow stronger
Because you empower me
To see that I can
With or without you,
And I try and I fail and I try
And I frustrate me
Because I,
I want to be better
But the progress is slow
And the challenges are non stop
And I know,
That it is not on you
To carry me, 
To show me, 
To help me heal,
But you do