I felt strangled,
Standing where you had once stood,
So many thoughts and questions.
How many times had your feet stepped there,
Tangling with the dirt underneath?
How many times 
Had you laughed there,
Cried there,
Kissed there?
As you studied underneath the art
You had brought back to life
And dreamed of what your future would be,
Did it look like this?
Did you clear your mind here,
Were you happy here?
How could I, I love you so much now
But not be able to know you then?
What was I listening to
As your laugh reached that open sky?
I want to reach that part of you that existed
Before you and me, collided,
Before I was strangled,
Trying to make you the best memories
Even though you weren't there,

And my heart was aching